I've grown more into despair then normal here lately. It seems the further i get aheaqd the more i get behond and there is never a way for me to catch back up. Im just working class making $413 every 2 weeks which realy sucks. I just cant make it on that alone and with the job i have now theres no time for me to get another. I just wish there were a way to make better money and if there is im blind to it cause ive worked in just about every place in this town. Sometimes i just feel like giving in but I cant let myself do that. I have more responsability then most and its all i can take. I just wish there was a way for me to get my work published and for me to be making some royalty on the side. I dont see that happening tough, So i'll just remain a father and a husband that works his ass off for nothing. if only there was a way.

Anyways, i guess i'll catch you all with my next journal.